Saturday, September 1, 2012

Let's give this another shot

Well, it's no secret that I haven't been around for a while. For a thousand reasons, really. I had a baby... that was a big one. My job kept me very busy. We were gone almost all of the summer. I didn't feel like it. But more than all of those circumstantial things was something I've been learning through much of my online time-sucks (i.e. Pinterest and other blogs): I have the tendency to seek my identity in what I do and what others think of me, and I am far too good at wanting stuff. It's really easy for me to make writing a post into a place to find praise. It's really easy for me to want to choose spending time on my computer over giving my full love and attention to my husband and daughter. It's really, really easy for me to become discontent in what the Lord has materially blessed me with and to idolize my dream of "home"and all that entails.

So I took some time off. And for all those reasons above, I never really planned on coming back. The only reason I didn't delete the blog from the face of the interwebs all together was because I liked knowing where I could find the recipe for homemade taco seasoning in a pinch. I mean, we eat a LOT of Mexican around here.

But about a month ago, I got the itch to start back up again. Mostly I just like having a place where I can accomplish something. Even if projects take me months to finish around here, the act of writing a post and clicking "Publish" is, in and of itself, an accomplishment. And for a mother of a 5-month-old, accomplishments are hard to come by. At least the kind you can measure. I also really love being able to share things with people. It's part of my personality as an (over-)communicator. I want to feel known. Lastly, I really do still mean what I wrote on the about page when I started this blog over a year ago... But most of all, it's a place to remind me that home is not four walls with a roof and a laundry room, it's a living with the man I love, the God I serve, and whatever adventure we journey on together.

The Lord has had me on a great emotional adventure over the last few months. I am learning so much about who He has made me to be and how that plays out in the plan He has for our family. There is still so much He is teaching me about where He has me now and where we are going, and I want to be open-hearted in the process. I want to invite others in to where I am. And I want to remember His faithfulness to me in EVERY season.

So with that... I'm baaaack. So get excited... because I sure am :)

1 comment:

  1. haha welcome baaaack. welcome back, welcome back, welcome back (you know you like that).
    -some hip hop song I don't remember